changing like seasons

fall

i first saw you walking into music 101 

every tuesday and thursday 

9am 

your beanie on, shaved head, i assumed you were someone's

and we finally met at your concert 

you sang into the microphone with no shirt on 

i recognized you from class

and i was wearing a sweatshirt that made me way too hot 

it rained outside 

we said hi and exchanged names

and went separate ways 

winter

it was just going to be a regular night 

throwing a bonfire and inviting a few people

i invited him and he brought you 

i remember hearing you whisper "dude, that's olive"

and i blushed 

we drove in the car and i spilt gasoline on me 

i remember you saying that some girls were beautiful and some were hot 

i wondered if you thought i was either 

few days later on campus, you called and asked if i would meet you at the museum cafe 

i did 

you taught me about the universe 

i was supposed to be studying for american history 

but we made history instead

spring

we saw eachother every day after our first true date

when we rode your scooter to eat gross italian 

and watch whip it and kiss 

and nothing could make me want to be anywhere 

but right by your side

but life doesn't work like that 

so you moved back to california

and i moved home 

and i visited you

and you me 

summer

was one for the movies

full of fate and luck and everything between 

working at a camp all night and day

except for the one day a week we had to ourselves 

to dive in the sea and sail to ship rock 

and lay on the dock at night

watching the bioluminescence 

i watched you cry for the first time 

and we had each others back 

hiking all day and all night 

and laughing at all of the drunks 

because they needed something to make them feel good 

while we just needed eachother 

fall

we fell in love in a house of blue 

and we learned and learned 

from books and from eachother 

we stayed up all nights some nights 

painting on the kitchen floor 

and we fought

but always figured things out 

and we realized we wanted to be together for a long time 

but you were leaving soon 

so we counted down the days 

kissed in the library elevators 

and ate so much thai food 

winter 

you left and i'm leaving soon 

and everything feels good and right 

i talk to your mom almost every day

and i think about you almost every second 

and even though you're gone, i know you're coming back to me

and ill come back to you 

but for now we are learning and growing 

and figuring out how to be the best we can for eachother 

and waiting for our next winter together